Lightening

Sometimes when I study my mind explodes in a frenzy of clicks; linking together what I read with what I've always considered underlying truths.  It makes me think that maybe, just maybe, my views of the world do have some relevance.  I just need to hear other people articulate them, validate them, and it propels me into a new realm where I can see a lifetime of connections and feel that fantastic momentum of unfolding enlightenment.  Beyond a simple lightbulb, my realization is a crack of lightening.  The thoughts branch and arc and link, feeding each other, sizzling with excitement.  And in an instant they fade.  Striving to ensure the permanence of such ephemeral revelations, my notebook becomes a spiderweb of scrawls and scratches as I try to pin down the wisps of interlinking thoughts.  My only hope is to have a pen on hand at that exact moment.  Today I succeeded.

Dear Tequila:

I need to make one thing VERY clear.  Last night meant nothing to me.  It was a one time thing.  It's not happening again and it certainly doesn't mean that we can be friends.

Noelle

Translation

"The most effective form of law enforcement is not the imposition of external sanctions, but the inculcation of internal obedience."

AKA The fanciest way of saying "...those who did it know their blame and I'm sure that the guilt you feel is far worse than any punishment you might receive.  Now don't you feel terrible?  Don't you feel remorse for what you have done?"

I can't believe it has been a month since I have had the time to properly write.  Not ok.  I have sat down so many times to chat about life, the universe, and everything only to get pulled away to work on something for school or my internship or whatever.  I don't want to only write token bits and pieces so I find myself needing some real time to write and it just hasn't been happening.

Since I last wrote, I....

Important Question

At what point does the number of loyalty cards in your wallet prove disloyalty?

Dear Everyone:

I don't know how to explain just how busy it's been since I landed back in London.  I promise that after Wednesday I will be able to get back to writing.  Oh, how I've missed it!!!  I would say I've missed you too but I saw a lot of you in person last fortnight (is that a phrase?  I'm going to go with it) and that was awesome!  For those of you I haven't seen in a long while (and everyone else too) , please write me an email/postcard/letter/message in a bottle and tell me all your news!